Saturday morning....

A sleepless night, i feel so bad that i can hardly breath. Whenever i am down or sad, Irene will automatically pop up in my mind, because she was always there for me. Gosh... i didn't know it is so hard to write out exactly how i feel. Tears are rolling down as i am typing.

All these while i have been concealing my emotions to my friends & family, don't want them worried about me. I kept my work coming. Giving all my best in my work and by all means make myself as tired as possible for each day, So that i could fall asleep easily. I only started jogging 5 months ago after my broke up, till today i am still jogging almost every single night. No one could really understand why i am doing this in a strict discipline, unknown to them is my cracked & bleeding heart. Awaiting 1 day that someone would guide me out of my misery.

What is happening to me?

Today i feel weird, unable to concentrate on my work well. Perhaps i am too stressful from work. I had been giving my best everyday, and i am kinda sick of not getting appreciated but only to get more pinpoints.

Not just that, i have not received any news on my conversion yet. I am getting worried about it too. The advise i have received was; wait patiently and see how things go...

Maybe i should do ask what i am told bah... basket.. feel so lost & insecure. This year my horoscope says I will be successful in my career, i hope it is true.... :)

Reviving myself

Yep, I am reviving myself. To start shooting again after 4 years. This will be my hobby to make my time passes by faster, and to keep myself dedicated to shooting. I should be able to regain my standards in a few months time, somehow or rather i am pretty confident about it ever since i gain back the body shape i had before. Just short of my little six packs...

I've submitted my order form for my Korean MarksmanHouse Suit. It will consist of Blue/White/Red/Black. With my name ' ED'... Also Safra Shooting Club's Air Weapons Captain has agreed to allocate a personal Rifle for me, to make things better. They will waived off my weapons fees. Perhaps the only downside is the Rifle, a Feinwerkbau P70 which is Generation older then the current popular Feinwerkbau P700. My alternative choice would be Steyr LG100. Either 1 should be sufficient for me :) .

Now all i'm left to do is to wait.... bewarn... the Silent Dragon is awakening.... :P

Tiring Sunday!

Yesterday, we had our monthly shoot held @ yishun safra. 6 details starting from 8am to 8pm. Omg, my legs are almost gone after walking around in the range for 5 details. It brings back my good old memories of helping out in events during my active shooting years, but those were nothing compared to this. 9 + 33 lanes = 42 lanes. A 2 way trip from 1 - 42lanes is roughly 100metres, imagine walking for 5 details each lasting from 1hour 15 mins to 1hour 45 mins... hahaha. I guess i did enough exercise for the day.. hehe

And guess whom did i meet up yesterday?. It was HER!!!, Phei San!. Omg... haahha. Yep i could recognise her from her photo, she has a nice set of teeth to pair up with her smile. It was a pity i was too busy with my work that i didn't have a chance to chat with her. However, i did talk to her. Though those were only "formal" talks.